warm and radiant
to d, my buttercup,
ever since meeting her, i knew that i would be safe in her hands. and it was true. she always took care of me. she was always there for me. she gave me so much love. she always kept me in her heart. even though we were on opposite sides of the country, i never felt so close to a person.
she is truly one of a kind. one in a billion. one in eight billion, in fact. we spent years being such wonderful friends. and she was wonderful to me, truly. do you know the feeling of relief that you get when you can finally stop worrying about everyone leaving? everyone else might leave, but she would stay by my side until the world stopped existing.
meeting her was a miracle.
and then we crossed paths in person for the first time. it was electric, magical, serene, all in one. we didn't spend much time together, but it felt like an eternity.
and then i realized that i truly felt the safest when i was with you.
days and nights passed and you always stayed close to my heart, closer than i would let anyone else be. people would come and go. i would hurt a little, a lot, but knowing you were still there kept me afloat.
i want to thank you everyday for being the reason i'm still here. you make me see how beautiful life is.
whether we have our lovely house in the forest (with no carpet), or a comfortable apartment in the city, i want to give you everything i have, because you're the reason i'm still here to begin with.
you're the reason i still want to keep going.
so please, if it's not too much to ask, would you stay a little while longer? i still have so many things i want to do in life, and i can't imagine doing any of them with anyone else but you.
we will always be two peas in a pod. and you will always be my buttercup.
- j, your bluejay